Sunday, August 27, 2006
[*Pa.tiEncE.*] ...i learnt something new today. i learnt that i'm not alone in this world. i'll always have God, i'll always have my family. and most importantly, i'll always have friends around me.
to anon passerby: with reference to my previous entry. i'm recepetive to people's opinions. so if you want to give your comments about me, i'm fine with it. afterall, everyone is entitled to do that and i respect that you have that right. whether i'm hurt or angry about that tag, it doesn't matter. cos you are not important to me and your comments makes no difference what so ever.
but i want to clarify one issue. i dislike hypocrites and for one, i'm not a hypocrite. my friends know that i'm not but if you wish to think so, i won't stop you. i don't blame the church at all. the church is a body of Christians, they have not offended me, so why would i blame them? in my entry, i said i'm unhappy with the church, but did i say i blamed them? more importantly, i said in my entry that everyone is different. so what may work for them in the church may not necessarily work for me. like you and me, everyone has different spiritual needs. and i did say that the problem is not with the church, it's with me. so i'm not blaming the church, you may wish to reread the entry again.
also, you do not know me. if you do, you will not fear to put your name instead of remaining anonymous. i will not judge you the way you did me by saying i'm hypocritical. i do not know why you seem to be unhappy with me in your tag since i've been keeping to myself except with my close friends all this while.
just also to let you know and people who are interested, i'm still very much a christian. and my relationship with God is still as strong and God knows. i've no gain in lying, so why would i do that? i do not do things to get people's attention. more importantly, i did not criticise anyone or anything in my entry. i'm just merely expressing my feelings and that's one of the reasons why i have a blog. and i'm not perfect just like everyone else, like you. everyone has problems and i'm sure you do too.
i did not say i did not fit in in church. i only said that i felt lonely with them not around. i have a wonderful cell who supports me and cares and Jesus Himself did not fit in in His time. as said in the Bible, Christians were not meant to fit in to the world in the first place. so even if i don't fit in the church, it's ok. cos i have God. if you have read this entry properly, by now you should understand that everything about this entry has been about me. i did not criticise anyone nor did i blame anyone.
i am not angry with you. i have no reason for that. in fact, i wanna thank you for expressing yourself. bottling up emotions is not good and i hope i gave you a better understanding of me. if you see me as a friend, please know that i'm one who firmly believes that true friends will tell you where you're wrong even if they fear loosing you, and once again, thank you for giving me this opporunity to clarify certain things that may have planted doubts in the minds of people reading my blog. may God bless you with love.
love,
cheryn ...
posted at 8/27/2006 09:15:00 pm
